| Fahad,
It has been the most amazing 5 months of my life and I've already done things I have yet to actually realize. We have come a very long way and stuck by each other's side through a lot of pain. You have shown me what its like to love and be loved and that's my happiness. It's all I need to have the most amazing life I can possibly have, and thank you for it.
You've helped me understand a lot of things people don't think I understand or think that I'm allowed to understand which is what is making me a very strong person. I have a lot more respect for love and people who have it. To be mature, you have to be an adult. But to be in love, you have to be nothing but a human being with a heart. That is very much true. You are everything to me, my life really, and I'm not going to give that up. I can't live without a life.
Habibi, In my eyes, you are the most amazing person. You understand me and care about me more than anyone else has ever even thought about. You are so caring, and wonderful. You're lovely. We communicate and even if sometimes it's hard to tell each other are feelings we still understand them when they aren't being talked about. We have that being of singing when we're not talking. We sing love, that song that is stuck in your head and never seems to disappear until you have stopped loving that person. But it never gets boring, never gets old. It has new rhythms every time I see you; it starts over every time I hear you. and it repeats every time I think of you. It's something I've grown too. Something that I adjusted to and I won't ever leave it.
I know now that what we have is so very truer because I can see myself in you. I can see us in you, in your eyes. Those beautiful eyes of yours shine every time you look at me, or our eyes meet. It electrifies me - my whole being. I wrote this letter to you from my heart. From mine to yours.
I don't know what it is about you that makes me feel the way I do; no other guy can get to my heart, but you can see through to the depths of my very soul. I care about you more than I ever knew I could care about anyone before. You see, I never thought I could love again, but now I'm so confused. My heart says yes, but my head says no. You wonder why I love you, but it's simple: when I look into your eyes, I see beyond all the hatred you hold. I see a real person, with real needs, someone who you are afraid to be. But that's okay, because I know the truth and I will wait until the day when you'll break down your walls. Even if it takes many years, I'll be right here, waiting to love you, as I already love you now.
From time to time you ask me why I chose you? What is so special about you? Well, the reason is simple. I chose you because you are YOU!!! I have never had anyone treat me the way you do. I have never had anyone just look at me and make me feel beautiful. You do that to me! You make me feel special and wanted. As liberal as I can be, I would never do anything to hurt you. You mean more to me than you realize. I am hoping that one day I can prove all of this to you! I want you for you!
Love always,
Sully |
